July 15, 2009

i've went ahead and cut my cast off. the doc raps that thing like a christmas present...way too tight...fingers kept going numb, etc. so i couldn't take it and decided to take it off. i told myself to take it ez, don't get all crazy with it, so i go out to the track on monday and pumped around the track. it got a little sore, but nothing super crazy. the next day, i go ahead and jumped the third straight before they changed it up just to bit the dog that bit me...landed it and that's all i had to say about that. i packed up and headed home. i won't lie, i was hurting that afternoon...lol...i took some motrin and iced it up. today...hmmm...i think i'll just do the normal stepmaster at the gym, sweat my butt off and continue to drop the pounds. yesterday i came in at 151 lbs!

not only do i have the grands coming up and want to be in the best physical condition i can be in, but i also have my 20 year high school reunion coming up. i can't wait to see some of the people i hung out with, however, lets say i wasn't one of the "cool" kids either. i mean i had a lot of friends, but i was definitely in the "weirdo" classification of school clicks... part of me wants to the jocks to show up all fat and bloated. part of me wants to see the hot chicks all wornout and pushing max density too. then i step back and tell myself, "does that make you any better than them?" no it doesn't. so i will put on the smile, say hello to everyone and just take satisfaction that i took the high road. be proud of what i've done in the last 20 years and especially of my family!

carrying hate for stupid stuff from 20 + years past just weighs me down and i choose to do the best i can in GODS eyes....